It’s funny how I could remember moments
that happened to us and you couldn't. I guess this is the downside of having a
diary or a journal. I can’t help but smile whenever I reread my journal entries
about you – about us. I don’t know why we were like that and if you really meant
what you said to me during those times. I still ask myself if it was just a
show or a trick you played on me just because you sensed that I like you so
much. Did you just give me false hopes? If yes, then why did you do that?
You used to complete my day by
just sending a simple text message or leaving me a message on facebook. I like you
a lot and to tell you the truth, I still fancy you. I used to daydream that we’re
together, holding hands, you kissing me on the cheek and stuff like that. I
used to think that fairytales are real, that I am a princess locked in a
dungeon and someday a prince or a knight will come to rescue me, marry me and
we will live happily ever after. Oh but hey, I forgot that a princess is a
daughter of a king; her family is influential, high class and wealthy. So yeah,
I am NOT qualified as a princess and I will NEVER be. I am nothing but an
ordinary human being dreaming to be loved and wanted.
Sometimes I wonder if you have a
selective amnesia but never mind. Do you still remember when you sent me a text
message telling me that you like me? I want to know if it is true and if you
really mean it.
I’m still confused. I don’t get
it why a guy would accompany a girl to the movie house, give her stuff that
will make her happy and request for a hug before parting ways if this guy doesn’t
really like her to be more than friends. Guess, I’m just giving so much meaning
to things. Oh by the way, you said you’re not like this to other girls but I
don’t know if that’s true.
I don’t know. I don’t understand
why you don’t like me (Oh no, that sounded so desperate). I guess that’s how it
is; a prince is meant to marry a princess and not just an ordinary homo sapiens.
But I am cool with it. It’s better to be this way; at least I will not lose you. Couples may break up, part ways and then they’re strangers again. But friends are not like that; they may part ways but they will remain as friends. When they see each other once more, they tend to catch up and both of them are happy to bump into each other again.
I will just always be here for you
and I know that you will just be there for me as well. I will still love you
but I will just do it discreetly. You see, you don’t have to love me the way I
love you. All I want is you stay with me and that will be better than us being
in a romantic relationship.
P.S.
Thank you for accepting me for
who I am. Stay with me, will you?
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